When You’re Too Tired

The days continue to get shorter, eclipsing the few days of bare sunshine with a cold blanket of stars backlighting the naked trees. There’s something comforting about the black night sky after endless grey days, days that can make us feel a compounding sense of tiredness, loneliness, and sadness. I breathe a little easier when the world quiets down into black and the brisk air fills my lungs. When the world sleeps the pressure is off of all of us.

I myself have felt especially tired with the seasonal change. I expected it in a way, since this is the time of year when so much of the natural world prepares to sleep. There seems to be a communal sense of tiredness, though. It’s bone-deep, and it can feel alarming and debilitating at the same time.

But…

This is a soul call to silence and celebration.

This is an internal prompt for reflection.

Consider: why do we pressure ourselves to constantly perform and produce?

Everything in nature ebbs as well as flows, rests as well as works. What is your natural rhythm hidden under all this outward production? What would happen if you let your natural rhythm be what drives you?

Maybe it’s not a bad thing that you don’t feel like forcing your winter energy to match your summer energy. Maybe, this is the time to pare down the projects and tasks, the time to simplify in order to conserve. Maybe it’s time to replace some of those obligatory meetings and activities with a night out with friends, dinner and drinks, and staying in to feed your soul with a good book or some hot tea by the fire (or just curled up in your favorite comfortable spot).

Maybe it’s time to spend less energy consuming social media. Maybe your heart and brain need a break from the endless barrage of opinions and marketing and terrible news. I have had the thought for some time now that many are too tired to go out and socialize face to face because they spend their social energy online. So, what if you spent more time face to face with people you love being around instead expending it online?

What if you focused on your needs and built your life out from there?

Perhaps this deep exhaustion comes from too many shoulds and not enough wants to and loves to. Perhaps it’s calling us to consider what would make us feel more fulfilled, what we would really like to do with our time, and how we can have more fun to lighten our hearts.

It may be uncomfortable, but it is a sign post telling us that something needs to change.

What is your heart calling for from you?

November 2017 New Moon Tarot Reading

The new moon in Scorpio occurs at 6:43AM tomorrow, bringing up deep emotions and shining a light on relationships, needs, and goals. For this month’s new moon tarot reading, I’m using the Joie de Vivre Tarot by Paulina Cassidy.

If you have any lingering disappointments about opportunities or relationships that didn’t pan out, take some time to work through your grief. When you’re ready you’ll see that there are still so many good things waiting for you to turn around and recognize them. It’s also an important time to address attitudes about what you don’t have. Too much focus on what you wish you had but didn’t, or did have but lost, blinds you to the many wonderful aspects of your life and all that you *do* have. You can correct this view by listing off what you’re grateful for on a regular basis, and soon enough you’ll see that things to be grateful for continue to come into your life as a steady stream.

This new moon is also an auspicious time for partnerships of all kinds. Whether you’re thinking about committing romantically or in business, the right people will present themselves. Take the time to make sure that any new partner will be a good and balanced fit. This is a time to step it up and not accept unbalanced relationships in your life.

Take some time to have some fun as well: maybe go out with friends or have a day just for you. Set some new goals in motion or take the next steps toward goals you’re working toward. Make sure the people you surround yourself with are supportive and want to see you succeed. You need people in your life who will celebrate your success and encourage you to go after what you want. Nurture those relationships.

Bright Blessings! 🔮🖤🌑🌜

Tarot and The Probable Future

I just finished reading The Probable Future by Alice Hoffman, a story about generations of women in a single family all with a unique gift bestowed on their 13th birthday, the youngest of which received the gift of being able to tell the future, or rather, how a person will die.

This story intersected well with my life as a tarot reader and witch, captivating me, accurately displaying the truth of all the important things. That’s the thing about novels: they cut right to your heart, they sidle up to you and whisper “me too” in your ear and as you read them, your interpretation is the only one that matters. You get a taste of what it’s like to really recognize your own judgment without anyone else telling you what it means or what to think. You enter into a private world and relationship with the characters who relate to you, change you, slip truth into your heart without you even knowing, though you feel it. You feel when the book is ended that something magical occurred between you and the words. And how could it ever be explained? It has to be experienced.

This is true for all things that matter in life. No second-hand account or blurted philosophy can substitute for feeling the swelling of the heart, the knowing within, the magic of relating. No self-help book, educational or religious text have brought me closer to what can only be known beyond words. We ourselves are mysteries to be encountered and known.  No one can explain the how of their relationship to the Divine. The closest we come is through allegories and stories. It is a mystery.  It is living poetry. 

The same is true for tarot. A handful of people have asked me how tarot works, and there are many theories, from connecting with the unconscious through archetypal images, to intuitive connection to spirit guides or a higher power, all of which dance around the real inner truth: I don’t know. No one does. Not really. It’s a mystery. I can’t explain it to you as if it were mechanisms on a machine. It’s not a parlor trick. It’s not the work of a magician (in the pulling the rabbit from a hat sense). There is no expounding on it with words. It is a thing to experience in order to know. It is cut from the same mystery that underpins our entire existence and provides meaning. 

As I finished The Probable Future I thought about how true it is that we can change our own futures. Though I do sometimes like to look ahead (after all, forewarned is forearmed), a decision here in this moment, no matter how small, determines so much of what’s to come. We can vibrate a different sound and suddenly change the entire tune. What exquisite power. How many eschew it. 

November Oracle

We have officially moved into the dark half of the year, and the moon comes full on November 4th. The rest of the autumn and winter season will bring a heaviness that requires you to rest more. Give in to your need to rest. Go within and listen to what is happening within your heart and soul. This is a time to regroup and replenish. Let yourself have the peace and relaxation you need.

This month is also a good time to take a true look at your life and the path you are on. Where have you been fooling yourself? In what ways have you been avoiding the big issues? It’s time to come face to face with these things so that you can work through them and move on, no matter what that looks like or what it means.

This is also a fabulous month for natural magic. Although you will need rest and time to replenish yourself, and will have much to work through, you may find that things are manifesting easier for you than in the past. The more you are honest with yourself and live out of your honesty, the more you will see things easily falling into place. The important thing is to let it flow and to not get in the way of what’s happening. Be grateful, and let it unfold. The weather may be getting colder, but you still need to take time to connect with nature. You could pot some succulents to keep inside (there are some that prefer shade as well if you don’t have an a available sunny window), and you could also put up some bird feeders to attract more wildlife into your yard.

There’s no room for cutting corners when it comes to your work and any of your goals this month. If you want to create something of lasting value in your life, you need to plan for it and then take the time to execute your plan with patience. In all areas of your life you may recognize that your absolute best is demanded of you. This is a good thing, because it reminds you of your responsibility for the quality of your life. Whatever creative projects have been on the back burner would do well if you began them this month.

 Overall, there is the energy present for you to embrace a deeper confidence which will give you the joy and inspiration you need to move forward, and the work ethic to make your dreams and goals manifest.

Bright Blessings 🖤
Full Moon November 4th. 

New Moon November 18th

November 2017 Full Moon Tarot Reading

The Taurus full moon is upon us, and as is customary I have pulled cards to deliver to you a full moon message. This month I am using the Paulina Tarot by Paulina Cassidy. 

The cards I pulled for this occasion are The Hierophant, King of Pentacles, and The Chariot


The Hierophant implores you to seek wisdom and knowledge, and also to share the wisdom and knowledge that you have gained over the years. We are each of us both teacher and student. You can open yourself to divine guidance and wisdom at any time. If you need help, ask for it. If something is bothering you, talk to someone who can help. The Hierophant also asks, what grounds you? What is your foundation? What have you built your life upon, and how easily can you be uprooted? How well does what you value truly sustain you? 

The King of Pentacles nudges you to treat yourself. It is all too easy to fall into a miserly mindset both with ourselves and with others, even though a generous spirit gives and receives equally in joy. In honor of the Taurus moon it would benefit you to consider how you could make your life more comfortable in a physical way (Pentacles is related to the element of earth, so in a sense, the King of Pentacles is king of earthiness and sensuality). Pay more attention to your body, how you move, how you eat, whether or not what you wear makes you feel good, etc, and make changes where necessary. You are reminded that this life, this earth, this body is a gift and to make use of your senses, to delight in the bounty before you. 

The Chariot asks you to recognize the ways in which your desires and actions are at war. How can you shift the balance in your life so that you honor yourself while also doing right by others? It’s all too easy to get caught up in either end of the spectrum: people pleasing or complete selfishness. Fill your needs, but don’t forget to do what you can for others as well. The Chariot also sends the message that, if you’ve been going through a rough time lately, your determination will see you through. 

Bright Blessings! 🖤🔮🌝✨

Divining For Lost Objects 

Lenormand is a fabulous oracle system to use when trying to find lost objects. With Lenormand, the more precise the question, the clearer the answer. This is paramount. Below is an example of how I used Lenormand to find something.  

Last week I lost two bracelets that were very dear to my heart- one I bought in Hawaii and one I received as a gift from my long-time penpal when we were kids. After reading for clients I was home and getting ready to wash dishes. I took my bracelets off, and then a little later I took off my rings. After I did the dishes I couldn’t find my bracelets anywhere but my rings were in the pouch of the hoodie I had changed into before doing housework. 

I checked everywhere, even the garbage in case I absentmindedly threw them away! But no luck! So tonight I pulled cards and asked three separate, clear questions. 

First: are my two bracelets in the house?

Crossroads + Dog = yes 

(Crossroads = two bracelets, Dog = loyal, nearby, and is a positive card which means yes). 

Second: What room are my bracelets in?

Book + Heart + Coffin


Hidden (Book)  in our bedroom (Heart + Coffin = where me and my boyfriend sleep). 

Third: Where in our bedroom are the bracelets hidden?

Garden + Anchor

Deep (Anchor) in a community area (Garden). 

This would be our closet. 

So, I went through the laundry basket, then recalled that I was wearing a different top with pockets the day of the reading. I checked the pockets of the top and there the bracelets were! I must have taken the bracelets off before I changed clothes when I got home, put them in a pocket, and forgot about them.  
Crazy! But I’m so happy I didn’t throw them in the trash or lose them for good! 

(The Lenormand deck pictured here is the Gilded Reverie by Ciro Marchetti).